If I could befriend you
and the loving surcease
even tangentially
I'd begin by degrees.
Efficacy of this measured
in less drinking. Or I'd
move to the West Coast
like everyone seems to.
But Seattle and Portland deadening too.
San Francisco? does
the fog mean finding?
Increasingly finds life
living. And the little things;
facial hair, whether or not
to buy that breakfast sandwich,
if I should be dating
your old boyfriend are all
often; keep being. We
could eat everything. With
the color all leeched out.
What is in your leather brief
-case? Let us smoke together.
Waves are like this too, I
have seen them scattered
on a beachhead, here, some
twenty meters further, still
some two or three yards
past that, crashing. The moon,
she decides incrementally
how they whence, but not as this.
The old chest superimposed
over the new chest. It comes
out less, wrong. Wish you
could love the parallel scars
on my forearm I sustained
as a boy when dropping
the box with the jig-saw on top,
laid teeth up, and fell upon it.
And for you to be angry
that such a box existed and
that I should have carried it.
17 December 2009
11 December 2009
10 December 2009
This Thursday 10:25 PM
On Thursday I will throttle you.
Drech of the week thinner, then
bacchanal on the tongues of
all choristers I am. And you too!
What loveliness when the grey
hairs return to your temples, my
choking the color from them. I
will not lie to you and say "This
is not a poem of my unrequited
love." Because it is. And how you
had so potential to make me
a better person, and I you. And I
am really trying to hold on until
Thursday. And you die in my
hands, and I you. And they
reconstruct us as one vilianesse.
Drech of the week thinner, then
bacchanal on the tongues of
all choristers I am. And you too!
What loveliness when the grey
hairs return to your temples, my
choking the color from them. I
will not lie to you and say "This
is not a poem of my unrequited
love." Because it is. And how you
had so potential to make me
a better person, and I you. And I
am really trying to hold on until
Thursday. And you die in my
hands, and I you. And they
reconstruct us as one vilianesse.
07 December 2009
Seeing 8:15 PM
I don't know what
my body means
but finally seems
sensible, peeing
in a you-adjacent
urinal and you peeing
too.
Boyhood never was
like this but not
for lack of trying.
my body means
but finally seems
sensible, peeing
in a you-adjacent
urinal and you peeing
too.
Boyhood never was
like this but not
for lack of trying.
05 December 2009
the Exodus 8:51 PM
Should this not be an exercise in faith
and not despondency? I wont to hear
you in whatever way again voraciously.
Up ended, again. Over the roakes, past
car crash-site, over (even) glowing piles
of embers to arrive at this. Ta! Fare thee
weller upon leaving than at first arrival.
Or fare farther, however. Woods sloughed
off this too while crossing through them.
'A psychosexual thriller' of waiting. Offed
these same woods, however made to
planks and into the water of not one
man, but three men: the overages of them
that pushed a space out in the sand
and made it glass by heating, so that
no one thing can live there afterwards;
water may collect there happily and
stagnate. And covering up this little space
that's been made by whomever.
The lip above of the turned-in ends of basin.
Why're they there? To corrupt this? To hold
this in? I remember laughter. Not from
anyone, but thrice. I recall the taste of liquor
that had no properties, and ice
that made one draw together, steele ones
-elf against the coming cold. Made one
consider cutting something out of life.
and not despondency? I wont to hear
you in whatever way again voraciously.
Up ended, again. Over the roakes, past
car crash-site, over (even) glowing piles
of embers to arrive at this. Ta! Fare thee
weller upon leaving than at first arrival.
Or fare farther, however. Woods sloughed
off this too while crossing through them.
'A psychosexual thriller' of waiting. Offed
these same woods, however made to
planks and into the water of not one
man, but three men: the overages of them
that pushed a space out in the sand
and made it glass by heating, so that
no one thing can live there afterwards;
water may collect there happily and
stagnate. And covering up this little space
that's been made by whomever.
The lip above of the turned-in ends of basin.
Why're they there? To corrupt this? To hold
this in? I remember laughter. Not from
anyone, but thrice. I recall the taste of liquor
that had no properties, and ice
that made one draw together, steele ones
-elf against the coming cold. Made one
consider cutting something out of life.
Something Glorious is About to Happen 8:05 PM
May I know less about
your face please?
It's contours where pores
give way to hairs
sporadically. Jesus
Christ was once your
age, who helped lepers
and befriended them
—and whores! No
filthless wretch among them
filthless. But I You.
Your mentor is a farce,
I think; the cartoon part
of Animus; enough
for you to emulate, dully.
But who knows how
good music evolves these
days. Their prancing with
bass held out like a forecourt
of debauchery before their
pelvis. Litter of red plastic
tumblers. I love you.
your face please?
It's contours where pores
give way to hairs
sporadically. Jesus
Christ was once your
age, who helped lepers
and befriended them
—and whores! No
filthless wretch among them
filthless. But I You.
Your mentor is a farce,
I think; the cartoon part
of Animus; enough
for you to emulate, dully.
But who knows how
good music evolves these
days. Their prancing with
bass held out like a forecourt
of debauchery before their
pelvis. Litter of red plastic
tumblers. I love you.
04 December 2009
the Quorum 6:44 PM
Patrick, it has begun
snowing again. In it, age
comes impassively as
eve growing over a scene
of old kudzu. And it has nearly
been a year since I cusped
on you. No recognition
of despondency. No thinness
after meeting, as a trace
covering of snow would be.
Or early April, after this
winter's over, when things
fell apart again. And you
stopped shaving to placate me.
I want to tell you what has happened
in the intervening year
but love metaphor too much.
I want to compare unfavorably
the intervening men and
make a quorum of us.
snowing again. In it, age
comes impassively as
eve growing over a scene
of old kudzu. And it has nearly
been a year since I cusped
on you. No recognition
of despondency. No thinness
after meeting, as a trace
covering of snow would be.
Or early April, after this
winter's over, when things
fell apart again. And you
stopped shaving to placate me.
I want to tell you what has happened
in the intervening year
but love metaphor too much.
I want to compare unfavorably
the intervening men and
make a quorum of us.
28 November 2009
Nigh On Transcendence 8:36 PM
When this happened
all one wanted
was a moment
of verisimilitude, and
thought of that, and then
to find it!
even after just
having been the subject
of furtive glances
or a near miss
with Julian Lennon,
or wayward taxicab
and then done. One
awash still with the feel
of knees broken sideways,
still the soft starstruck
of not knowing what to say
to John Lennon's son.
Until after this malfeasance
a waving teen boy's face
in a train window
as two cars alight
in opposing directions.
all one wanted
was a moment
of verisimilitude, and
thought of that, and then
to find it!
even after just
having been the subject
of furtive glances
or a near miss
with Julian Lennon,
or wayward taxicab
and then done. One
awash still with the feel
of knees broken sideways,
still the soft starstruck
of not knowing what to say
to John Lennon's son.
Until after this malfeasance
a waving teen boy's face
in a train window
as two cars alight
in opposing directions.
27 November 2009
Poems I've Written 8:29 PM
'Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull'
[A British novelist...]
[A taste]
[An Elephant]
[Ed Rucha, Phil]
[Everyone has ugly thighs]
[Growing in the grasses]
[I have a headache]
[Impromptu list un-]
[It's okay for you to be a slave to assonance]
[Oh bitterness]
[Oh even though]
[Olympics drawing to a close]
[one]
[Set]
[Simply put]
[Swimming down the rustic bay]
[The connect in]
[The cut's nor that bad—It's]
[They say you want it differently]
[Today I'm on the beach]
[Use the 12"]
[What depends on a Japanese man]
[Whiling away the hours]
[You can be careful with complacency]
a Bad Omen
a Bad Week
a Castle in Malibu
a Coup for Columbian FARC Hostages
a Gift of Anton Yelchin
a Life Bisected
a Paucity of Hope
a Pomeranian
a Proposal of Marriage
a Universal Declaration of Human Rights
a Walk
a Wallet, Found
ad Astra per Panton
After Polar Low
All Christendom
American Culture
Amply
an Albatross
an Andiron
an Idyll
an Ornithology Book
Analogue to Hope
Ancient Roads
Apples
Arrested
at the Sarlaac Pit
Autumn Song
Bad Teacher
Battlement
Beach Vacation
Beed
Being Careful
Betterment
Black Suede Jacket
Brett
Building a Tunnel
Building Love
Bums
Can Change This
Cavalcade of Want
Chance Encounter
Chicago Fire II
Chicago's' Greek Salad
Children's Orchestra
Classic Hallmarks
Classicism
Clear Drinks
Climbing a Cliff
Clone Wars Volume V the Best Blades
Coffee in a French Press
Coming Winter
Common Vole
Commuting
Commuting to Bliss
Concessions
Concretism
Condensate
Condensed
cone
Constancy
Continuing
Coupon Expert
Covered
Cursive
Cyclone in Burma
Dad
Dania, Dan, Cheeba, Return of the Jedi
Dark Horticulture
Dear You
Decency
Dedication
Demon Goddess Lilith
Destroyer
Directing Meaning
Dream of Love
Drudgery
Drudgery (2)
Drudgery (3)
Duum
Early Aughts Excesses
Earnestry
Economy of Pixels
Eire
Electrical Sockets
Elegy on Nietzsche
Exit
Expatriotism
False Prophets
Fashion Model
Fear of Displacement
Fey
Fight
Finding the End of Books
Finding the Rain Evaporated
Fixing Us
Fleeing and FIghting Anyway
Foal
Friends
Frontierism
Further about the tower of which you must have heard everyone speaking
Further Complications
G8
Galosh
Gentle Jig
Giving Up
Glass and Mirror
Glass and Mirror (2)
Golden Penny
Grecian Independence
Green Endive
Guns and Holsters
Halcyons
Half
Handicap Acclimation
Hard Luck Brothers
Hard Work
Hard Work (2)
Hardship
Harry Kim
He
Herring Bone
Hey, Moisturize!
Hi Red Center
Hissing, Spitting
Holes Darning
Holiday
Hot Wax, Water
Houndstooth
How to be More Like Robert Creeley
How to Buy Shrimp
Hurtling
I Don't Go
I Get to Wear Cut Off Shorts Too
I Hate Modern Photography
I Know
I make something. Things get worse.
I'm Too Fat
Ian
Imagist
Immorality
in Allusion to Olympia
In Soil
In the Bag
In the Tall Grass
Inside You
Is a Terrible Day for Gay RIghts
Is Miserabler
J.S. Leifheit
Japanese Maple
Jean-Michel Basquiat
José Begonia
King of the Hill
Learning
Light
Literature I Like
Lithely
Little Thrush
Lost Father
Lost Princess
Love
Love (2)
Love's Comeuppance
Lovers
Lying Lips
Make Do or Do Without
Makes Weak
Market Forces
Marriaging
Meal
Meaning Less
Memorandum of Activists
Mercury's Girlfriend
Mercury's Helmet
Mercury's Weekend
Merry Christmas
Messing Up an Internet Purchase, Twice
Meth
Mind Made Family
Missed
Missing Out
Mob, Moors
Model of Duress
Modernism, Postmodernism, Postmodernism
Moving Life
Mutual Assurance
My Bicycle
My Generation
My Love
My New Four-Pack
My Too Late Love, for the Mexican
Negative Qualities
Night
No Avail
North
Not Having Been an Internist
Not Knowing Better about Angela
Novilo
Obliviation
Ode on Geryon
of Triads
Offal
Old Designs
On and Under Large Wall
On the Road
Opening
Our Parents
Pail
Pax
Perpetuity
Pickling Liquid, Large Glasses
Plea
Plea for Better Media
Polyglot Response
Pregnancy
Progress
Pumpkin GIrl
Punctured Tube, Possible Futures
Push Hard Saloon Doors
Quicksilver
Quiet Living
Rawinsode
Reading to Children
Redwing Blackbird
Reliquary
Remarkable
Remembrances (Clothing)
Returns
Rewriting the Debut Novel
Ruins of Pride
Run Amok Animus
Rycine
Sad Penguin
Sapling Growing Cold
Saturn
Scorned Lover
Scrim Shack
Sections
Sending the Red Pennon
Servitude
Setbacks
Setting the Red Pennon
Slow Down
Smells
Solitary Holiday
Sounds Mimic Cities
Springs
Stay Strong Friends, Spring is on the Way
Staying Broken Up in Alaska
Stick Song
Stravinsky
Summer Wedding
Summer, 2007
Summer, 2007 (2)
Summer, 2007 (3)
Sunrise-Dusk
Switching to Digital Cable
Tantalizing
Tapes
Tattoo
Teenagers
the Art of the Unfortunate
the Best of All Possible Worlds
the Birth of Nandi
the Colossus of All Hope
the Compound
the Contropposto Youth and Hidden Crone
the Counterrevolution of the Problem with Avant-Gardism
the Distant Flap of Fireworks
the Dream
the Effect of Vinnie Leaving
the End of Anglican Communion
the End of Critique Week
the End of March
the End of Big Government
the Estrella de Mar
the Fraternity
the Full Tumult of the Fall
the Haunting
the Hellhound and the Platypus
the Last Great Snowman
The Life that Women Make
the Lonely Arts
the Object of My Affection
the Office (U.S.)
the Personal God
the Pressure Pattern's Millibars
the Pull is Here
the Quiet Collective
the Ready Descent
the Republic
the Retreat
the Reverse Compatriot
the Sapling Growing Cold
the Spy Park
the Subfusc Gem
the Three Steles of Seth
the Truth
the Twinning Council
the Wind of Change (for millennial poets)
the Winter and Our Escape
the Wooden Life
This, less, less, less, zero
Three Things that You Are
To Summer
to the Ground After Quake
to the Wheel
Tony Blair's Briton
Too Plump Cherry
Trepidation
Tripwire, Anxiety or Getting into the Castle
Triskedekaphobia
Trumble
Trust
Tumult at Sea
Two Tools
Under a Bushel
Us
Vegetarianism
Velvet Trap
Very Important
Veteran
Vortex
Wakefulness
We
We FIght
We War
Wearing a Wood Shirt
What
What Dead Does
What Happened Besides the Barbecue
What is embroidered into the conceptual space between wires
What John and I Were
What Love Was
When He Finally Resigns to my Loving Him and to the Family We'll Have
When I was 35
Why are you wearing boots and a fanny pack?
Wish
Work
Work Traveller
You are my shining star
You Can Do It
You're Hurting Me
Your Notebook
Zimbabwe in Crisis
Zombie
[A British novelist...]
[A taste]
[An Elephant]
[Ed Rucha, Phil]
[Everyone has ugly thighs]
[Growing in the grasses]
[I have a headache]
[Impromptu list un-]
[It's okay for you to be a slave to assonance]
[Oh bitterness]
[Oh even though]
[Olympics drawing to a close]
[one]
[Set]
[Simply put]
[Swimming down the rustic bay]
[The connect in]
[The cut's nor that bad—It's]
[They say you want it differently]
[Today I'm on the beach]
[Use the 12"]
[What depends on a Japanese man]
[Whiling away the hours]
[You can be careful with complacency]
a Bad Omen
a Bad Week
a Castle in Malibu
a Coup for Columbian FARC Hostages
a Gift of Anton Yelchin
a Life Bisected
a Paucity of Hope
a Pomeranian
a Proposal of Marriage
a Universal Declaration of Human Rights
a Walk
a Wallet, Found
ad Astra per Panton
After Polar Low
All Christendom
American Culture
Amply
an Albatross
an Andiron
an Idyll
an Ornithology Book
Analogue to Hope
Ancient Roads
Apples
Arrested
at the Sarlaac Pit
Autumn Song
Bad Teacher
Battlement
Beach Vacation
Beed
Being Careful
Betterment
Black Suede Jacket
Brett
Building a Tunnel
Building Love
Bums
Can Change This
Cavalcade of Want
Chance Encounter
Chicago Fire II
Chicago's' Greek Salad
Children's Orchestra
Classic Hallmarks
Classicism
Clear Drinks
Climbing a Cliff
Clone Wars Volume V the Best Blades
Coffee in a French Press
Coming Winter
Common Vole
Commuting
Commuting to Bliss
Concessions
Concretism
Condensate
Condensed
cone
Constancy
Continuing
Coupon Expert
Covered
Cursive
Cyclone in Burma
Dad
Dania, Dan, Cheeba, Return of the Jedi
Dark Horticulture
Dear You
Decency
Dedication
Demon Goddess Lilith
Destroyer
Directing Meaning
Dream of Love
Drudgery
Drudgery (2)
Drudgery (3)
Duum
Early Aughts Excesses
Earnestry
Economy of Pixels
Eire
Electrical Sockets
Elegy on Nietzsche
Exit
Expatriotism
False Prophets
Fashion Model
Fear of Displacement
Fey
Fight
Finding the End of Books
Finding the Rain Evaporated
Fixing Us
Fleeing and FIghting Anyway
Foal
Friends
Frontierism
Further about the tower of which you must have heard everyone speaking
Further Complications
G8
Galosh
Gentle Jig
Giving Up
Glass and Mirror
Glass and Mirror (2)
Golden Penny
Grecian Independence
Green Endive
Guns and Holsters
Halcyons
Half
Handicap Acclimation
Hard Luck Brothers
Hard Work
Hard Work (2)
Hardship
Harry Kim
He
Herring Bone
Hey, Moisturize!
Hi Red Center
Hissing, Spitting
Holes Darning
Holiday
Hot Wax, Water
Houndstooth
How to be More Like Robert Creeley
How to Buy Shrimp
Hurtling
I Don't Go
I Get to Wear Cut Off Shorts Too
I Hate Modern Photography
I Know
I make something. Things get worse.
I'm Too Fat
Ian
Imagist
Immorality
in Allusion to Olympia
In Soil
In the Bag
In the Tall Grass
Inside You
Is a Terrible Day for Gay RIghts
Is Miserabler
J.S. Leifheit
Japanese Maple
Jean-Michel Basquiat
José Begonia
King of the Hill
Learning
Light
Literature I Like
Lithely
Little Thrush
Lost Father
Lost Princess
Love
Love (2)
Love's Comeuppance
Lovers
Lying Lips
Make Do or Do Without
Makes Weak
Market Forces
Marriaging
Meal
Meaning Less
Memorandum of Activists
Mercury's Girlfriend
Mercury's Helmet
Mercury's Weekend
Merry Christmas
Messing Up an Internet Purchase, Twice
Meth
Mind Made Family
Missed
Missing Out
Mob, Moors
Model of Duress
Modernism, Postmodernism, Postmodernism
Moving Life
Mutual Assurance
My Bicycle
My Generation
My Love
My New Four-Pack
My Too Late Love, for the Mexican
Negative Qualities
Night
No Avail
North
Not Having Been an Internist
Not Knowing Better about Angela
Novilo
Obliviation
Ode on Geryon
of Triads
Offal
Old Designs
On and Under Large Wall
On the Road
Opening
Our Parents
Pail
Pax
Perpetuity
Pickling Liquid, Large Glasses
Plea
Plea for Better Media
Polyglot Response
Pregnancy
Progress
Pumpkin GIrl
Punctured Tube, Possible Futures
Push Hard Saloon Doors
Quicksilver
Quiet Living
Rawinsode
Reading to Children
Redwing Blackbird
Reliquary
Remarkable
Remembrances (Clothing)
Returns
Rewriting the Debut Novel
Ruins of Pride
Run Amok Animus
Rycine
Sad Penguin
Sapling Growing Cold
Saturn
Scorned Lover
Scrim Shack
Sections
Sending the Red Pennon
Servitude
Setbacks
Setting the Red Pennon
Slow Down
Smells
Solitary Holiday
Sounds Mimic Cities
Springs
Stay Strong Friends, Spring is on the Way
Staying Broken Up in Alaska
Stick Song
Stravinsky
Summer Wedding
Summer, 2007
Summer, 2007 (2)
Summer, 2007 (3)
Sunrise-Dusk
Switching to Digital Cable
Tantalizing
Tapes
Tattoo
Teenagers
the Art of the Unfortunate
the Best of All Possible Worlds
the Birth of Nandi
the Colossus of All Hope
the Compound
the Contropposto Youth and Hidden Crone
the Counterrevolution of the Problem with Avant-Gardism
the Distant Flap of Fireworks
the Dream
the Effect of Vinnie Leaving
the End of Anglican Communion
the End of Critique Week
the End of March
the End of Big Government
the Estrella de Mar
the Fraternity
the Full Tumult of the Fall
the Haunting
the Hellhound and the Platypus
the Last Great Snowman
The Life that Women Make
the Lonely Arts
the Object of My Affection
the Office (U.S.)
the Personal God
the Pressure Pattern's Millibars
the Pull is Here
the Quiet Collective
the Ready Descent
the Republic
the Retreat
the Reverse Compatriot
the Sapling Growing Cold
the Spy Park
the Subfusc Gem
the Three Steles of Seth
the Truth
the Twinning Council
the Wind of Change (for millennial poets)
the Winter and Our Escape
the Wooden Life
This, less, less, less, zero
Three Things that You Are
To Summer
to the Ground After Quake
to the Wheel
Tony Blair's Briton
Too Plump Cherry
Trepidation
Tripwire, Anxiety or Getting into the Castle
Triskedekaphobia
Trumble
Trust
Tumult at Sea
Two Tools
Under a Bushel
Us
Vegetarianism
Velvet Trap
Very Important
Veteran
Vortex
Wakefulness
We
We FIght
We War
Wearing a Wood Shirt
What
What Dead Does
What Happened Besides the Barbecue
What is embroidered into the conceptual space between wires
What John and I Were
What Love Was
When He Finally Resigns to my Loving Him and to the Family We'll Have
When I was 35
Why are you wearing boots and a fanny pack?
Wish
Work
Work Traveller
You are my shining star
You Can Do It
You're Hurting Me
Your Notebook
Zimbabwe in Crisis
Zombie
26 November 2009
in Allusion to Olympia 10:04 AM
I would have commissioned
a portrait of you, something
of vinyl house paint and pubic hair
to hang horizontally over
the futon in your living room.
I pictured you reclining in it,
modestly (as if you ever could, you cunt!)
obscuring your genitals with a cupped hand,
because love means thinking
better of you than you are.
a portrait of you, something
of vinyl house paint and pubic hair
to hang horizontally over
the futon in your living room.
I pictured you reclining in it,
modestly (as if you ever could, you cunt!)
obscuring your genitals with a cupped hand,
because love means thinking
better of you than you are.
